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Writing Things Down To Maybe Not Remember Them

If you read my earlier post you know I’ve been trying to get away from the Internet and all its distractions. In truth, it hasn’t really been that difficult to opt out of the doomscroll (or whatever you want to call it).

I enjoy being less angry after reading absurd bullshit online so I’m sure that has a lot to do with it. I do go on Instagram, or other socials, occasionally but the amount of time has been reduced drastically. I think it’s improved my outlook and general mental health.

Another thing that’s improved my outlook and general mental health is writing in a journal. It’s been over a month now and I’ve been writing every night before bed instead of looking at my phone or iPad. Over thirty days . . . in a row. Gold star for me.

My journal isn’t anything formal and I don’t really follow any set pattern. It’s more like I open it and just start rambling about things I’m thinking about. Good, bad, sad, angry, happy whatever . . . it all goes in there. I also find it particularly good when I’m angry or upset about something. I write it down and get it out of my head.

I actually feel better after doing it. I think keeping that stuff inside isn’t great for you and I don’t always want to talk about it or expose my family or friends to any of it, so getting it out on paper is a good form of self therapy for me.

Of course, I’m not saying actual therapy is bad or not helpful. It’s absolutely helpful. This is just what I’m doing now and it seems to be working, Also, I’m not having super dark thoughts or anything, I just get angry or frustrated or sad sometimes. We all do. Perfectly normal, especially given the circumstances of the world right now.

Why am I talking about this? Well, if you’ve read this far (thank you, btw) I’m talking about this because it might be of benefit to you too. If you’re having “thoughts” or “Thoughts” with a capital ‘T’ it might help to get them out of your head by writing them down.

You don’t ever have to go back and read what you wrote and the journal can just be for you. It can be your private place to say all the stuff you want to say in any way you want to say it.

Please keep in mind I’m not a mental health professional and if you’re in need of help, please seek it from a professional. They can help you and they sincerely do want to help. Please allow them to do so.

That said, writing things down has been very helpful to me. I’ve done it enough so its become a habit I actually look forward to. I’ve even expanded to writing in the mornings as well. What the kids call “morning pages.”

I dump out all the things from the night (dreams, thoughts, whatever) and plan (in some detail) what I’m going to try to accomplish during the day. It’s not a strict plan, more of an outline. Still, it seems to help me focus more during the day and get more stuff done.

The other takeaway here is just to do your best. Don’t get upset with yourself if you miss a day or if you don’t think you have anything to write. There’s been more than one occasion where I’ve just written “I don’t have anything to write today” several times in a row until other stuff finally starts to flow.

I’m fortunate having nothing to say doesn’t happen to me very often. I’ve never really had what people call “writers block.” Just lucky I guess.

But it’s important not to be scared of it happening or be frustrated if it does. Just do your best. Try just writing literally whatever. As long as the pen or pencil is moving, that’s good. And if still nothing comes, put the journal away and come back to it later in the day. It’s okay.

I hope you give this a try and I hope it works as well for you as it has for me. Best of luck. You’ve got this.

And as always, be kind to each other. We need that now more than ever.

The iPhone Didn’t Fail (Obviously)

It happens pretty much whenever Apple decides to release a new iPhone model (or models). Some dufus will dig up that old Engadget post of mine (from 2007, btw)  where I wrote about another dude’s opinion of the then brand new iPhone. In short, he predicted it would fail.

Not my opinion. His.

Still, people think it’s some sort of “gotcha” on me and hurry over here or Reddit or wherever and talk about how dumb I was for saying it would fail. I guess they have a lot of free time and also don’t bother to read. I get it.

Let me explain. In the “old days” of the Internet we had these things called Blogs (like what you’re reading now). Sometimes on these blogs we’d link to an article posted somewhere else written by someone else and comment, or give our own take, on the subject and the article. This was one of those times.

So, I was quoting an post written by someone else and offering commentary on the other person’s opinion. An opinion I did not and do not share.

This happened a lot “back in the day.” We also tended to use “click bait” headlines (like the one for my old post), which helped drive traffic to our site. It worked. In fact, we kinda invented the technique. Sorry about that.

As for me, I’ve been an Apple fan for years and currently use an iPhone 15 Pro. I’ve also had about six or more previous versions all the way back to the absolute first iPhone, which I waited in line for at the Sherman Oaks, CA Apple Store. I wrote a post about that too.

We had to post often in those days or we didn’t get paid. I enjoyed getting paid, especially for writing.

I doubt this will do much to clear up the confusion, but I thought it would be good to at least try. Maybe It’ll work? Let’s hope.

 

Letting Go and Analog Things

With all that’s going on in the world it occurred to me being online a lot and trolling social media is probably a bad thing. Bad for my mental health, bad for my level of anger and just bad in general.

I can’t be angry or anxious or feel bad almost all the time. It’s no way to live.

So, with that in mind I’ve been taking a sorta break from most online things. I still post on Instagram and look at photos or watch YouTube videos, but I pretend most other things don’t exist and rarely, if ever, post anything. No Threads. No Facebook. No Bluesky and certainly no Twitter (I will never call it X. Fuck that).

One benefit of not scrolling all the time is, well, more time. I’ve got more time to do other things. One of the things is writing. I’ve been writing more. It isn’t hard to write more than I had been. Any bit would be more when compared to zero, which is what I had been doing.

One of the ways I’ve started writing again is by doing a journal. Every night before I go to bed, instead of looking at my phone or iPad or whatever, I write in one of my favorite notebooks (the Confidant from Baronfig if you’re curious) with one of my favorite pens or pencils (the Uni-Ball 207+ and/or the Blackwing 602).

No, this isn’t a commercial for those products, they’re just some of my favorites. I do love my pens, pencils and notebooks. Some might say too much. But that’s crazy. You can never have enough. Fight me.

Writing every day and keeping a journal (or whatever you want to call it) has been great. I really like doing it and I think it’s become a habit. It makes me happy.

I’ve also seen quite a few people talking about writing a journal first thing in the morning. Getting all the stuff out of your brain before you start your day. That sounds great too and I will probably do that at some point.

For now, though, I’m happy with my progress and don’t want to take on too much. I don’t want to beat myself up if I can’t journal two times a day or something. I’m happy I’m doing it at least once a day, every day. I’ll take the small victories where I can.

So, if you’re feeling some ways about some things: angry, anxious, afraid, whatever, maybe trying writing those feelings and thoughts down in a journal. You don’t have to show it to anyone or even read it ever again. It’s just for you. It’s just to have a place to put some of those feelings and thoughts you maybe don’t want to keep inside.

I really think it’s working for me. It might work for you too.

With the additional free time I’ve also been reading more and watching some shows. Currently, I’m reading The Foundation series by Isaac Asimov. It’s been awhile and I’m enjoying the Apple TV+ series so I thought I’d revisit the books.

I also read this great book called Make Time about, well, time and taking some control over your own happiness and satisfaction during the day and in your life. I don’t usually read this kind of thing (self-help or whatever), but these authors make a lot of sense. It’s definitely made me think about what I do during the day and how I spend my time.

Finally, I’m spending more time with my family, taking some walks and even making the occassional photograph. As always, you can find some of those on my Instagram.

Ok. That’s it for now. Be kind to each other.

Well Said – The War On Empathy

Hello all. Just wanted to pop in and let you know about this video from Lindsay Ellis. It’s long, sure, but it’s very well done and definitely makes you think. And I really believe we should all be thinking as much as possible these days . . . about a lot of things.

Watch. Learn. Think. Do something. Whatever you can. Be kind. Take care of each other. Thanks.

This Looks Fantastic

the fantastic four

In the spirit of staying positive and not reacting to the state of things right now, here’s another trailer (for a movie this time) that I think looks great. I’m sure you’ve seen it by now, but if not, here it is.

I’m talking, of course, about the recent (teaser) trailer for Marvel’s upcoming The Fantastic Four: First Steps. In a word, it looks, well, fantastic. Yes, I went there. Can you blame me? It was right there.

I love everything about this, especially the retro vibe. It really takes me back to the Silver Age of comics I knew as a younger man. Plus, the casting is spot-on. I’m definitely looking forward to seeing the “First Family” in action. Fortunately, we don’t have to wait too long.

This Looks Great

daredevil: born again

I was (and still am) a big fan of most of the Netflix Marvel series from several years ago. I enjoyed the shows, especially Daredevil and Jessica Jones Season One. The rest were various degrees of good to great, with one major exception.

But no, we don’t need to talk about Iron Fist unless we’re talking about Jessica Henwick, then yes. She was the best thing in that series and hopefully we’ll see her character again. But sadly, the rest of Iron Fist was just . . . not good.

But in the interest of being positive, let’s move on. You can imagine I was pretty excited when they announced a new Daredevil series on Disney+ was on the way. That was a couple years ago and I’ve been waiting patiently.

Well, it’s 2025 and the new show, called Daredevil: Born Again, is finally set to be released in late March. About time.

Recently, a full trailer for the series dropped, and I gotta say, I’m in. It looks great. Glad to see most of the old gang back together again.

This is gonna be fun. And sad. Yeah, probably a little sad too. No spoilers though. Enjoy!

Staying Positive

staying positive

Now that I’ve decided to get back to the blog and content that I own and control, one big problem with blogging continues to be the same after all these years (at least for me): What the heck to write about? It’s difficult coming up with topics and attempting, in your own way, to make sense of said topic or your particular “take” on it.

But I guess that’s a problem with all creative endeavors, you need to put in the work. And a lot of people aren’t willing to do that. But no, I’m not here to bash anyone or complain or anything like that. I’ve done that before, as many of you who read here know, but that’s not something I’m going to focus on today.

Really, I’m going to try not to focus on that too much at all going forward. I don’t want to be negative or come across as negative, regardless of how I feel in the moment or how things are going in the world. There’s already enough negativity going around. I feel it. I’m sure you do too.

Instead, let’s focus on the positive. . . I’m positive everything is fucked . . . No, come on. I’m just trying to be funny. Emphasis on funny. Because man, you just gotta laugh sometimes at the absurdity of it all. How did we end up like this? I don’t really know.

Okay, let’s remember to focus on the positive. But what can that look like?

Maybe it means not spending all of your time on social media seeing how things are going? Or maybe it means focusing more on local efforts in politics, or other areas, where your voice and contributions can have more of an impact? Maybe it means spending more time with family and friends enjoying your life as much as you can and not feeling like everything is going to come crashing down?

For me it means a combination of the above and, hopefully, this blog/website. I haven’t blogged “professionally” in a while, but I don’t think I’ve forgotten how. Yes, Blogger was an actual job not that long ago. My byline is out there if you search.

And no, I didn’t write a post once about how the iPhone would fail. Well, actually it was technically a post about how the iPhone would fail, I just wasn’t the one saying it. I was quoting someone else and reporting on their opinion. You’ll just have to read it. Or not.

Let’s just say I can do this. I know I can. In fact, you could say I’m positive . . .

Turning to darker topics for a moment, the devastating wildfires in California have left me feeling horrible for those impacted. Los Angeles was my home for over 20 years and my heart goes out to everyone there, including many friends and former colleagues, who’ve lost businesses, possessions, homes and precious memories.

It’s a horrible tragedy made even worse by some people’s callous disregard for human suffering and staggering lack of empathy.

If you can, here’s a link to a list of organizations where your money can help victims of these horrible events:

Places That Need Your Money

I know money is probably tight, just do what you can. Anything will help.

Until next time, be kind to each other.

 

Yes, I know the photo has been used before. I just like it. It reminds me of happier, more positive, times.

The End of 2024 And Onward Into 2025

onward into 2025

Going into 2025 like . . .

2024 was quite a year. To say the least. Certainly, it wasn’t all bad. We had some good times, right? Right.

I did. I’m sure you did too. Let’s try to remember those. The good times. The small moments that mean so much even if maybe we don’t realize it at the time. Those are important, and will probably be more important, as the year moves forward.

And let’s try to remember, please, to be kind to each other. I really think that’s important too. Maybe you do as well? I hope so.

Anyway, I’m off into 2025 and have been reading a few books, watching a few shows and a few movies and looking forward to doing more of that in the weeks and months ahead. I’m also struggling a bit, mostly about how (and if) I should get started with the YouTube channel.

I don’t think it’s too late to start YouTube and I don’t think I’m too old (some may disagree). I’m just not sure exactly what to do and how to do it. In truth, it’s more the “what” (and “why”) than “how.”

I know how to make videos (pretty much). Although, it’s been a minute. In my former career, I was mostly the guy who said what to do than the person actually pushing the buttons and doing it. Concept versus execution and all that.

I can tell you what’s wrong with your thing and what to change to make it better, but I can’t necessarily use the tool you use to make those changes. So, it’s been a bit of a learning curve for me with the latest version of Final Cut Pro and thinking about video instead of stills, which is what I’ve been shooting 95% of the time for the last ten years at least.

I’m still woking it all out.

In the meantime, here’s some of what I’d like to focus on more in 2025. Not resolutions or anything like that, just potential areas of focus. In no particular order:

• Physical Fitness
• Mental Fitness
• Care Less, Create More via Video, Photography, Writing, etc.
• Self Care
• Being a better Partner
• Being a better Father

I’m sure there’s more and I know this list is somewhat generic and probably needs a bit more detail. Still, if I can try to be mindful of these things I’m sure I can make time and space for progress in these areas. I’d like to try.

I also won’t be beating myself up if I don’t excel in one or all of these areas. My intentions are good right now, but as the year progresses, who knows? Shit happens.

Getting back to what I’ve been enjoying of late, here’s a fews of the things I’ve been reading, watching and listening to in December and January (so far):

The Riftwar Saga by Raymond E. Feist – Finishing up A Darkness at Sethanon, the third book of the first trilogy of this series. I read these books the first time as a kid and loved them. They’re even better now. Great stories and characters plus lots of action and adventure. Terrific stuff.

Next up will be The Empire Trilogy, starting with Daughter of the Empire. I remember these being great too when I first read them years ago. I guess I’ll see if they hold up. I’m sure they will.

Black Doves – This Netflix show features Keira Knightly and Ben Whishaw as well as a supporting cast of terrific actors. Well written and directed, it’s a really fun and often serious show. I liked it very much and It’s great to see the stars at work, clearly loving what they’re doing and being great at it.

Slow Horses – As a fan of spy stories I would be remiss if I didn’t mention an even better show than the above Black Doves. And that show is, of course, Slow Horses. It deals with British spies and counter-spies, MI5, conspiracies and a whole lot more.

The best thing, really, is to go in cold and just see it all unfold. Everyone in the show does excellent work, especially Gary Oldman (which shouldn’t surprise anyone). It’s one of the best I’ve seen in years. Apple TV+ can really pick ’em.

Silo – Speaking of Apple TV+, Silo is back for Season 2. Silo is a great show and if you love sci-fi, well written and dimensional characters and deatailed world-building, this is for you. Not to mention drama, suspence, action and a whole lot more. It’s really good.

I’m a bit sad it’s only going to be four seasons, but I guess Rebecca Ferguson can’t be tied to a TV show forever. Plus, it’s gotta be quite expensive to make, especially as the seasons continue. So, four and done. I’ll take what I can get.

The Cure – That new album from The Cure, Songs Of A Lost World, is great, isn’t it? Iv’e listened to it quite a bit.

I’m thrilled a band I loved as a youth is still going strong. I can’t tell you how many times I drove home late at night as a moody sixteen-year-old listening to the last few track of The Head on the Door, but it was a lot.

I’ve also watched several movies recently, but this post is getting long so I think I’ll save those for another time. Suffice it to say December and January have been good months for movies so far. Although, I’m lucky to still be a DGA member so I get screeners of most films and don’t have to leave the house, which makes watching a lot of movies much easier.

I don’t really mind watching at home (my TV and sound are pretty good). It’s fine. For me, though, there’s still some magic associated with experiencing movies in a theater with an audience. I know it probably sounds corny, but I don’t care.

I love movies . . . in a theater. I just don’t like being in a theater as much anymore. Mostly because of the other people.

This isn’t a dig at Austin, per se. Alamo Drafthouse, where I usually go, does a decent job of dealing with people’s undesirable behavior. But I don’t remember audiences being quite so annoying and rude when I lived in LA and regularly went to movies at the Acrlight (RIP). Times changes, I guess. And not always for the better, alas.

My other theory is people in LA often work in the business and have a certain amount of respect for films and filmmakers. They’re also the ones who stay through the credits until the houselights come up. It’s a sign of respect and also fun to try to spot names of people you know who worked on the film.

People rarely do that here in Austin, except maybe at AFS or if you get a particularly good crowd at an Alamo showing. It’s not a big deal, I guess. Still . . .

I always stay until the credits are done. You should too. Show some respect.

And with that, I’ll say so long. Until next time, be kind to each other.

 

Photo: Apple TV+

Kindness and Hope and Superman

I don’t have a lot of words right now, but something needs to be said. This looks amazing and, I think, it’s something we could really use right about now. It gives me some hope.

Well done. Can’t wait for the movie and especially more of Krypto. Clearly, the best boy.

July 2025 can’t come soon enough.

Moving Forward Day By Day

Well, I don’t mind telling you this week has been rather difficult. I know I’m not alone in this. In fact, I feel like there’s millions of you who agree with me. And that’s how it is.

I’ll probably have more to say in the near future, but for now, I want to state for the record I’m an ally to kindness, to love, to family and to any LGTBQ folks reading this. I see you. I hear you and I accept you (not that you need that from me). I just want it known I’m on your side.

I’m sorry about this week. It sucks for people who want to choose right from wrong. I was hoping for more from my fellow citizens.

Many of them showed up and did the right thing. More did not. It’s gonna take some time to process that. I don’t understand it right now, and to be honest, I’m not sure I ever will.

In the meantime, I’m taking it one day at a time, doing my work, creating, making my version of art, being with my loved ones and taking some time for self-care. Is that the best strategy right now? I don’t know. It’s what I’ve got so I’m gonna do it.

Try to take care of yourselves and try to be kind. We need it now more than ever.